so what’s new in my life you ask? — oh you don’t ask? you can fuck off then.

So far in 2011 //
The summer was pretty good; went to queensland, had time off from work, got fucked up a fair bit and all that jazz. Was kicked out of an event due to being too drunk, which was a first. The only other time I’ve been kicked out of somewhere, was when I was at a club and got bashed. Joy. Anyways, that was a rather unpleasant experience, being too drunk to type/read txt messages, almost losing my phone in a cab, and laying in the back of my car till the early hours of the morning vomiting out the door, but still looking back I’m glad I went hard out. Sometimes though, going hard out comes with regrets. I always say that I don’t regret (or don’t like to regret, rather) anything, because you learn from your mistakes and helps you form an understanding of either; a) who you are; b) who you’re becoming; c) who you want to be. But some things when you decide to go hard out and not give a fuck, such as literally fucking for the first time without a condom, may give you an STI, which in that case means you could be; a) contracting a disease; b) becoming ill/feral; then c) you’ll want to be someone who did use a condom. That’s where the regret part comes in. Not saying I did any of this of course, that was just a completely unrelated example.. 

But now the summer is over, I’ve run out of money, I’m back at work and Uni and as always when you get back in to this routine, you start to think of shit. Such as;

What you want to get out of life.
Who you want around in life.
Where you want to be in life.

For some reason, I feel as though my personality has changed a bit lately. I have less patience, I’m unmotivated and don’t feel like I’m getting anywhere. I’m thriving for change, but at the same time I fear it. But I think I might need to just take a leap of faith and do everything the opposite. Hunt for a full time job within an industry I’d like a graduate job from in the future. Study from home. Save for travel, pay off my debts and even move out. Go out and create some new ‘firsts’ and open my eyes to the world a bit more. I cannot wait to volunteer in Thailand next year. At least then, I’ll be ticking heaps of firsts, like going overseas, directly helping those in poverty, and various extreme type adventures. Cannot wait!!

Until next time, keep the sex safe.

Paul. XO